Words and More Words (Page 2)
I write on no set schedule, no rhythm, just what’s in my mind when there’s something in there to get out. I don’t overthink my grammar or punctuation, I just write my mood. I’m just as likely to look back on something I’ve written and dislike it as you are. All I can promise is that if I wrote it, it’s what I genuinely thought at that time.
Sitting on the edge
There are times in life where you know you’re in the good ole days. Then there are times when you know you’re sitting on the raggedy edge, one push away from major change, unsure if that change will be good or bad. These last few years, I’ve often commented to my wife that we’d look back later on this as a really stable and happy time- we’re in a good spot in our marriage, we have a safe, healthy, and…
Steve
I’m not a good friend to anyone. I have friends, people I value, respect, enjoy, and desire to be around more. But I’m terrible at follow through, and connecting with people when I do think deep down, they don’t want to be around me. So I’m never the one to post on social media about how close I was with someone- because someone else is always infinitely closer. I’m an acquaintance for many, close friend to none. But that doesn’t…
Good Friday Message
This was a very short sermon I gave for good friday on MStar.live 2021 Today is a very special day in Christian circles. I know easter is coming, and man are we excited to talk about that with you on sunday. But really, for me, today means so much, that I couldn’t just let it pass and not chat with you about it. Right now, from 6-8 at our church, we do a somber open house- people come in, take…
Identity
I can be such an idiot sometimes. I feel like I have to re-learn the same lessons over and over. Maybe that’s you too, because the more I grow older the more I see all people needing reminded far more than we need educated. I used to work at a computer store in the bay area. I prided myself on being a part of a small and ultra specialized group of people that lived on the cutting edge of computer…
The Worst Dream…
Man, I just woke up from the worst dream. I felt like it lasted years, and like most events, it’s not even believable, and sounds so zany and stupid when I say it out loud. In it, America elected a reality TV star as president. They were all so mad a black guy had been president that they elected Donald Trump- a guy with a laundry list of sexual assaults under his belt, and zero presidential qualifications. Now I know…
On the anniversary of Bob’s death
Tomorrow, the day this will go online, is the one year anniversary of one of my favorite people on earth passing away. Honestly, I don’t do great when I think about Bob. My mind fills with all the things I wish he’d get to be a part of – my baby girl, named after his last name, as she grows up knowing who Jesus is. My mind fills with sadness at my loss, then just empties completely. ILike the returning…
The unknown
I watched last week as Rudy Golbert of the NBA made fun of the Covid19/Coronavirus and played bongos on each of the microphones in front of him to demonstrate how unafraid he was of the next big threat. Then one day later, the NBA was shutting down for the first time ever over health reasons. As I started to laugh at what a moron he was, I recognized, “That’s exactly what I would do!” That same Wednesday, we were talking…
RIOT Message Feb 2020 #2
RIOT MESSAGE Judges 7 So part two of a double header about dear ole Gideon. To hear the first message, go back in time and show up last week. 🙂 So let’s catch you up in case you weren’t here- here’s the armies, camped out, gettin ready for battle. Gideon went all scaredy cat, and double triple checked that God was still God. Spoilers, he was. Now here we are, battle getting ready. Prolly some dude in a skirt going…
RIOT Sermon Feb 2020
RIOT MESSAGE Judges 6 Judges 6-8 6-7:23 first week How many of us have ever thought something along the lines of “I wish I could know that God is real” that he’s on our side, loves us, has our back etc. I have. I think anyone being honest would say they have, right? Wether you don’t yet believe in Jesus, you wish you knew for sure. If you do, you wish you knew for sure. Like for sure. Sure. Who…
Wrote this for work
So this is my daughter Maddie. She’s still pretty new here to the planet. Rather than spending my bio talking about me, I’m gunna talk about her, and what I want for her. I want her to grow up and know Jesus. I don’t want her to just know about Him, I want her to love Jesus in with the depth and genuine passion with which I love her. I want her to avoid my mistakes of rampant pride and…
My amazing wife
I have an amazing wife. I’ve always known this. Before we were married, before we had dated- I knew she was the one for me, the only one I’d ever want. And while there’s a great many things in life I regret or have done poorly, I’m sure proud of my ability to pick the most amazing woman ever. This recent time, with Baby Maddie running our lives, has been interesting, because I’m discovering even more new ways that my…
Musings on six weeks in
I’ve prayed to die more times than I can count. From about 14 or 15 onward, I’ve been praying somewhere between 20-200 times per day to die. I pray it as a song, in words, in moans. It’s been the one counterpoint in frequency to “I love you” said to my wife, and “I live to serve” said to everyone. But Maddie was born a bit over a month ago, and suddenly, once. Like not for one day, but one…